This isn't a question. But help me.?

I'm not Emo, I'm a typically very happy girl. But lately, the stress of becoming an adult is killing me. When we were all kids, we looked forward to becoming an adult. It looked like so much fun. But now, I'm trying to get a job, which I can't seem to find anywhere. To help pay for the college I want to go to's, Intuition. Which I currently cannot get into, because my ACT score was 2 points too low. I could retake it, but I'm scared it'd be worse or show no improvement. I'm depressed mainly every night. I'm happy by day. My family is pressuring me to go to college, as no one in my family has before. And I'm also living in my perfect best friends shadow. She has everything going for her. And her family supports her much more than mine. I feel alone and like I have no friends half the time. I am bulimic. I hate the way I look. I disgust myself. I'm hating all this responsibility of becoming an adult. I wish I was a little kid again. Or just gone. I feel like I'm not worth it, I feel like I'll never be good enough. I feel like taking my life. I need help.